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Why?

 

 


                                                                    Why?

 Why do I have episodic waves of depression and sadness

pour over me?

Why do I sometimes actually feel my age and really look my age?

Why do I think about the thought of my husband dying way too soon?

Or of me, dying with so many things undone?

Why?

It's really morbid to have such moods and feelings,

I want to say it is not truly me.

I shut my eyes and hug my Gypsy Rose comfortably close.

Why, do I find myself at times in such a funk?

Perhaps, it is such another part of being complicated me.

I want to be this joyful, peaceful person.

I start out my days with that intention, always.

But somehow in the middle of the muck, 

I get stuck.

Why?

Perhaps, I'm way too inward drawn.

I need to take a step back, 

Pause and quietly reflect.

Take back what I have thought I've lost or given up.

Remember, that choices are always mine to make. 

Why?

Because above all else, I am loved by You Lord,

the One true God of goodness and grace.

Turn my mind again to truth and hope, 

which is always Your work in me and not me to try to do.

And then and only then can I give up my accusing

Why?

 

 

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