Mary's Heartbeats

"Let me know," was the prayer of Moses after he had dealt with the reality of his people gone astray.  He had just spent forty long days on a mountain top with God, and returned to those who had grown inpatient with his delay.  They had sought to replace God with an imitation god of gold.  The aftermath was ugly, the people had been punished, ring leaders had died, and now once again it's back to square one with developing people into sincere followers of the one true God.  Moses hears that an angel will go before them as they set out for the promised land, but that is not the same as the presence of God going before them.  He pleads, intercedes once again, humbly asking God to remember the favor He has shown to him in the past and wants to know that indeed God Himself will go with them.  "Let me know," is the theme of his prayer. "Let me know."  I have prayed the same.  Part of the dilemma of being human is that we just don't know.  We c...

Waiting. . . most of life is waiting.  I arrived to my doctor's appointment with at least 5 minutes to spare, and even with a semi filled waiting room, I found myself sitting and waiting.  I skimmed through the small stack of magazines, no particular article seemed to interest me.  I paid my co pay, sat down and waited some more.  I was then called to go into the exam room and there I waited.  I read all my emails, looked at the latest news, did a few yoga stretches and waited.  I decided finally to just be quiet, sit and wait.  I couldn't make the process go any faster, I know.  As a Nurse Practitioner with a schedule of patients to see each day, I know the difficulty of trying to give time to each one and still "be on time."  It really is an impossible task, and to be honest I couldn't imagine the difficulty my oncologist faced with his schedule.  I am sure every visit involved such difficult conversations.  We all sit in the wi...