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My Own Worst Enemy

I just don't get it.  One minute, I am swinging the golf club consistently and landing in the fairway, and in the matter of just a few holes, I have collapsed.  My demise started setting in as I grew more self conscious with my stupid shots.  No one really goes onto the course planning to make terrible shanks and hooks.  And usually, even if you have done that you do have a sense of what you did wrong.  But none the less, it leaves you feeling even more frustrated with what you thought would be a super fun day. That's when it starts, it resonates in my head.  Those negative tapes of self.  I'm not sure why or where that all stems from, but maybe it has come from growing up somewhat in a fishbowl and finding yourself compared so often to others.  But perhaps it is a part of who I am, a hard critic of myself, with no else to blame or fault.  I am my own worst enemy. . . Of course, when we feel vulnerable we build defenses.  So what...

Reluctant Spiderman

That was odd . . . I rubbed my eyes.  I peered into the lighted water of the Jacuzzi only to be met with the big eyes and grin of a very furry puppy! It kept on looking up at me, I couldn't walk away.  I reached on in and pulled out what ended up being a squirmy kitten. I did my best to hold it high above my head, as Goldyn bounced and jumped around me to land his paws on it . . . whew!  The next thing I knew, there was ol' Quasimoto, running his best towards me.  But between him and me was the widest span of mucky, muddy water.  Quasi was weighted down, with his shaggy hair slick with the black tarry stuff.  I sensed his fear as I saw him trying his best to get the sticky goo off his feet, so he would gain some traction.  I heard my self shouting for those around him to help get across.  Help him, help him! Guide him here to me!  He dived on in the murky muck, bobbing up and down, turning into a blackened blob of slime.  The next thing ...